That's a sad story. Sounds like you're doing what has to be done. I do believe 100% that excessive weed can accelerate and worsen mental illness to the point of acute psychosis in the same way excessive long term high dosage use of Prozac will. In fact it's pretty similar Prozac Induced Psychosis as the both thc and prozac have a direct effect on cannabinoid receptor type 1
I'm Bipolar, spent time in a mental health hospital as an in-patient after some pretty serious manic and depressive episodes though fortunately not to the point of acute psychosis(not on weed at the time and had none in my system) but mixed with many patients who had it. Professionally(until the bipolar incapacitated me) I'm a mental health support worker, so been around a lot of people with psychosis that way to, despite spending so much time with people in various stages of the condition, I find utterly impossible to comprehend what you must be going to through in your head. Very very scary stuff. I've knocked on the door to insanity but never stepped through it like you have. Frightening stuff.
I know not having weed is in itself tormenting you, but I think you know you're doing the right thing by knocking it on the head. I don't think the weed it self will have been the problem, it's the amount you've been smoking which has contributed. I rarely smoke over half a gram a day. Bit more if it's Sativa. In small doses it's a very efficient anti depressant. If I start letting my dosage get out of hand, I think it would see my bipolar worsen as well as worsening the risk of psychosis. I have both bipolar and psychosis running in my family too, on both sides.
Have they got you on Olanzapine? I found it very couch locky, but then, I was in a period of my life when I didn't smoke weed so It will probably have had more of a sedative effect on me than it would on you due to your tolerance.
I hope you manage to find some quality of life. It's very sad what's happened to you but thank you for sharing. It's good to show 420 doesn't just have to be a day to flaunt the recreation, it should be also be used to raise awareness and understanding and I think your post does just that.
When it comes to mental illness and weed, little is more, while high dosing is really really damaging imo.
You've typed all that out on a push button key pad mobile haven't you? Kudos on your efforts there.
Maybe a mod could kindly break this lady's post into paragraphs to make it easier to read?
Thanks for the post maryjane
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