I disagree with Bunda-Errb about all this strongly; I don't think he read your post properly. I almost always get stoned alone at the moment because for me, it's a very private experience. It's not that I couldn't be comfortable being under the influence, with the right people, it's that the way I want to be and the things I want to do when I'm ganjified are like that: things I'm better off exploring on my own.
The truth is cannabis isn't just a social, hanging-out-and-being-cool drug, the private side of dope that you're describing is enormously important as well. I love that you keep a bookful of your mind, and that it's full of colours and pictures as well as words. I think this is an excellent way to do this thing.
I don't know how young you are, but you sound young, and it's natural -- to put it mildly -- that if cannabis releases your creativity, your mind, that you're going to be uncomfortable around other people, because in society you can't be too spontaneous or someone will take the piss, or just genuinely think you're weird. I don't blame other humans for that, it's just the way the thing usually is. In time you'll probably become more comfortable doing this around other people. But if you never do -- so what?
You've got this lovely thing that you can do all on your own; or with people you're very close to.
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Stirruphead
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